death

feels so much like falling, dying while i wait to die - flyleaf [much like falling]

DEATH.
n 1: the end of life 2: the cause of loss of life 3: the state of being dead

this entry is reply to rachelle's blog entry about death. my biggest fear is death. i'm scared of what might happen afterdeath. is there really life afterdeath. or will we be revived & will our soul be placed in another body. and we will be another person in another lifetime? or after we die. is it really the end. or just the beginning? a lot of questions always rise up to my mind whenever i think of the word death. dying. and i'm scared. because i know that when we die. we die alone. we came into this world alone, and we will die alone. and i really hate being alone. i think that's another reason why i have this fear of death.

but there was a time before. wherein i feel like killing myself. and i think if i got rid of this fear before. i would not be typing in our living room right this very moment. if only i was braver than i am, i think, i'd be dead by now. so. haha. i should be thankful of this fear? [stupid conclusion, from stupid me]. i'll probably talk about that side of me later. in my other entries. lolz.

death. i still have this fear in me. and i'm scared of the future. i'm scared of getting old. scared of dying. just realized. i'm such a coward. haha. for rachelle she's waiting to die. and for her, 'the nearer the better'. but haha. it's the opposite thing for me. it's really confusing. coz kids these days, wanna die. and old people wanna live more. can you see how man can never be satisfied? they always want something they can never have. i mean. not really never, but for the time being, they want things which aren't really for them. ok. this is not about death anymore. haha.

death. is something really puzzling for me. at times. i wanna die. at times i'm scared. and i'll probably never understand it. ever.